I have chosen to share my path for many reasons. I have to admit that the main reason is a selfish one. There needs to be a place for me to share my thoughts, no matter how demented. Many of us have similar stories and similar lives. We may be at different crossroads but we all have the same goal. To be thin, even though, we know in our hearts that we can never be thin enough..never. I am not a believer in comparing, judging, or lecturing.. Weight is not a true indication of whether a person needs to seek help..It is our ability to function that should help us decide. With that being said, never be afraid to share your story, never be afraid because "you weigh too much", I am here and welcome comments.. Positive and negative.. I would like to be as honest as possible and if I avoid the negative comments I don't think honesty is truly possible. Today my weight is 109 lbs. For me, the idea of maintaining three digits is completely unbearable. I am on a quest to be below 100. Hopefully, I will find peace somewhere between 95 and 99. That is my goal. I have been meditating daily. Hoping to find some guidance, as I really would like to remain as healthy as possible. Both in mind and body. I have also made a commitment to myself to abstain from purging..If I eat something that causes me anxiety, I need to sit with it and not allow myself the quick fix I constantly choose... I am also refraining from laxative use.. I am very aware of the fact that it does not cause true "weight loss". For me it is the need to feel empty that drives me..I need to start my day loves.. To anyone who took the time to read this. Thank You..
CW 109
GW 95-99
HT 5"7
Calorie Goal for The Day "Under 1000"
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